To Whom It May
First, everyone understand. I
have nothing to do with Nicole's murder. I loved her;
always have and always will. If we had a problem, it's
because I loved her so much.
Recently, we came to the
understanding that for now we were not right for each
other, at least for now. Despite our love, we were
different and that's why we mutually agreed to go our
It was tough splitting for a
second time, but we both knew it was for the best.
Inside, I had no doubt that in the future we would be
close friends or more. Unlike what has been written in
the press, Nicole and I had a great relationship for most
of our lives together. Like all long-term relationships,
we had a few downs and ups.
I took the heat New Year's 1989
because that's what I was supposed to do. I did not plead
no contest for any other reason but to protect our
privacy and was advised it would end the press
I don't want to belabor knocking
the press, but I can't believe what is being said. Most
of it is totally made up. I know you have a job to do,
but as a last wish, please, please, please, leave my
children in peace. Their lives will be tough
I want to send my love and
thanks to all my friends. I'm sorry I can't name every
one of you, especially A.C. Man, thanks for being in my
life. The support and friendship I received from so many:
Wayne Hughes, Lewis Marks, Frank Olson, Mark Packer,
Bender, Bobby Kardashian. I wish we had spent more time
together in recent years. My golfing buddies: Hoss, Alan
Austin, Mike, Craig, Bender, Wyler, Sandy, Jay, Donnie,
thanks for the fun.
All my teammates over the years:
Reggie, you were the soul of my pro career. Ahmad, I
never stopped being proud of you. Marcus, you've got a
great lady in Catherine, don't mess it up. Bobby
Chandler, thanks for always being there. Skip and Kathy,
I love you guys. Without you, I never would have made it
through this far.
Marguerite, thanks for the early
years. We had some fun. Paula, what can I say? You are
special. I'm sorry I'm not going to have, we're not going
to have, our chance. God brought you to me, I now see. As
I leave, you'll be in my thoughts.
I think of my life and feel I've
done most of the right things. So why do I end up like
this? I can't go on. No matter what the outcome, people
will look and point. I can't take that. I can't subject
my children to that. This way, they can move on and go on
with their lives.
Please, if I've done anything
worthwhile in my life, let my kids live in peace from
you, the press.
I've had a good life. I'm proud
of how I lived. My mama taught me to do unto others. I
treated people the way I wanted to be treated. I've
always tried to be up and helpful. So why is this
I'm sorry for the Goldman
family. I know how much it hurts.
Nicole and I had a good life
together. All this press talk about a rocky
relationship was no more that what
every long-term relationship experiences. All her friends
will confirm that I have been totally loving and
understanding of what she's been going
At times, I have felt like a
battered husband or boyfriend, but I loved her; make that
clear to everyone. And I would take whatever it took to
make it work.
Don't feel sorry for me. I've
had a great life, great friends. Please think of the real
O.J. and not this lost person.
Thanks for making my life
special. I hope I helped yours.
Peace and love, O.J.